This group of posts are meant as inspiration and motivation for you to work on making your values and goals achievable. Sometimes we want something for ourselves, but we set the bar so high that we strive all our lives and never seem to be able to reach our goals. I don’t want to spend my life striving for something that I may reach when Im 80 when I can change the wording and enjoy reaching it everyday. I’ll tell you how.
In order to feel alive, I need to be able to be spontaneous and I need to be free. I didn’t really think about this before I suddenly had 2 years to think and reconsider my life. Not many people get the chance to actually stop and think. We run through life believing that we are following our hearts, but at some point we may find out that what we thought was our heart talking was societal norms and a need to be recognised by all the other people around us.
That’s sort of what I have experienced.
I found myself making rules for myself to fit into the boxes around me. It didn’t feel right. Sitting there in my quiet apartment alone for several hours a day, taking walks in nature, enjoying a few moments of pain-free time once in a while, I realised that I wouldn’t be able to change myself to fit into the boxes. Even if I tried. I have always known that I wanted something else out of life. I just never knew what and how to get there. I still don’t. But I try everyday to be free.
I have learned to listen to my heart and I practise all the time to actually do what it tells me. We spend a lot of time training our minds to be strong and to set up arguments and reasons for our actions, sometimes it gets so strong that it wins arguments with the heart. I know now that my heart speaks the truth and that if I listen to it, it will take me where ever I need to be. I am exactly where I need to be.
I live my value Spontaneity and Freedom whenever I follow my heart, whenever I stop planning and take things as they come, and whenever I throw myself into the unknown.
Being spontaneous can be quite scary at times and the mind sometimes tells you to do it differently. My mind often yells loudly trying to make me plan things, it works hard to make sure that I have people around me and that I am sure to stay financially stabile. It thinks that the only way to do that is through planning and setting life up into boxes just like everyone else does.
My heart doesn’t agree. It is free.